I've written on the goodness of God this month... In the context of God as a gift giver.
In the weeks since that post, I've experienced His goodness in beautiful ways.
It's true, He is good.
And it's true, He's a good gift giver.
But this month is all about honesty and being unfiltered and getting comfortable with being uncomfortable, so here we go: I had really struggled with the idea of God being good.
Yeah, I believed He was good. In a far off, metaphorical, of course He's good, He's God kind of way.
It wasn't personal. It wasn't heart knowledge. It was head knowledge.
And when you operate out of head over heart knowledge, your attitude towards things are often callous, as was mine.
I would almost internally roll my eyes when I'd hear people say how good God is. Well duh, I would think. He's God. Doesn't He have to be good?
And I wasn't understanding it, friends. I wasn't getting it.
Of course He's good. That's His nature.
And the Bible is full of it... Of promises of His goodness.
But head knowledge is different than heart knowledge, and I was operating out of my own callousness.
I'm so glad that He is gentle with me. He is patient with me. Even just this week, the more I'm pressing into the goodness of God, the more I'm watching it play out in front of my very eyes.
His goodness is not some far away fairytale, but is quite literally as real as the oxygen in our lungs. He is good, and displays that in every avenue that He can.
I'm not even sure I can adequately explain the ways that Jesus has been working on my heart, and I'm sure I'll revisit this topic later.
But I'm seeing the goodness of God.
A quick testimony: I have $350 due by October 31st for my mission trip to the Dominican Republic.
I was lamenting earlier this week to the Lord, "If I'm really supposed to go... You're going to have to get me the money, because I don't have it!"
The $350 was paid, with more on the way.
I was beyond blown away God would choose such a personal, tangible way to show me His love and His goodness, at the exact time that I needed it. I'm learning to live in a spirit of expectation, and He's been on a real kick of saying to me, "Rachel, test Me in this."
I'm seeing His goodness. I'm learning about His gentleness, and it's almost like I can feel Him smiling at me.
He is gentle. And He is good.
It's just that simple. It's just that complicated. There's so much to explore about the very nature of God, and I'm learning to test Him in it.
Ask to see His goodness. Ask Him to show you what you're missing. Ask Him to give you a download of what you're needing.
Be encouraged, friends. Our Father is so inherently good. That is who He is. And that is who we are in Him: He calls us up to our true identity.
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